liefste Selim
Liefste Selim,
Jij maakt me altijd weer blij,
Op momenten dat ik het zo nodig heb.
Elke keer kies je precies het goede moment,
Steeds als ik me rot voel of er is iets gebeurd, dan hoor ik iets van je.
Ik heb veel steun aan je en je vriendschap betekend heel veel voor me.
Ik wil er ook voor jou kan zijn als je iemand nodig hebt.
Soms kan je het niet alleen in deze wereld,
dan ben je blij met een vriend.
Je vriendin
Jij,
Jij bent het mooiste wat me is overkomen sinds vele jaren,
Na veel grijze haren…
Na veel lessen des leven,
Kwam ik je tegen.
Opeens en totaal onverwacht,
Dat had ik toen niet gedacht.
Jij vond mij verlegen…
Het leven bewandeld soms bijzondere wegen.
Oh Selim, je bent ver van mij,
Maar toch ook weer dichtbij…
Ik voel me zo erg verbonden met jou,
Daarom is het dat ik van je hou…
Een thuisgevoel heb ik bij jou,
Over 5 weken, dat is al gauw.
Dan sluit ik je weer in mijn armen,
En je vriendelijke hart doet mij verwarmen!
Alles voelt zo bekend en vertrouwd,
Ook als ik hoor dat je van me houd…
‘t Is alsof het altijd al zo was geweest,
Bij jou zijn is een feest…
and today
today i send you the goodbyemail...
goodbye, my sweetness
i can't stand more pain...
the time with you was so precious to me
i keep you in my heart forever
2 weeks ago
You told me today...you are on the same place where we kissed each other for the first time 2 weeks ago.
You are doing all the same things, only now i am not there...
You make me so happy, although i am so sad that we aren't together.
I am so unsure all the time...
today i had a difficult time, but just at the right time you eased my mind with your SMS
Can it be that you really love me?
Sunday when i felt so bad in my stomage you send me that SMS that you felt sadnes because you missed me so much...wow...like telepathy!
Well, time will tell everything...but i think like you, that you came on my path for a reason.
Have a safe journey home tonight.
Ohh my...
oh, my head and heart...
I am so affraid...it feels so good and so nice again, but i'm still affraid to think it's ok this time.
Perhaps it's another sweety pie?
He feels so sincear and honest, even his name means: the reliable.
Well, i don't know yet what will happen, but at this moment it helps me to forget about a lot of pain and i hear all day that i am walking on sunshine.
So, thats nice for as long as it takes.
Perhaps he have to marry some girl also one day, nothing surprises me anymore...but this time i am prepaired.
I feel loved and that's what i didn't feel for a long time...so for how long it takes, that's good for me.
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Today i had a surprise on my privat musicwebsite...;))) *big smile*
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When i come home i heard an SMS from Sonja .. she explained why she didn't come or called me yesterday>>> her brother tryed to commited suïcide, he was in the hospital with a heartattack because of that.
I heard from her last time when she was with me in december, that her brother is schizofrenic, and that he have so many problems.
I knew her brother from the past when i came to Sonja's house when she still lives with her mother and brother, and i remember him playing on packman when i was there....he was arround16 or 17 at that time...
Well, it is very sad...
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But to end this day i listen to my music, and i am tired so i will go to bed early.
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Yvon and I have decided to go to Turkye anyway.. i will push her wheelchair...we said..we will have fun as we have always!!! And we are positive as always..hahaahh
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Today i went together with Lukas to Gaby in Germany, Sonja didn't come and i called her 6 times (i waited 2 hours for her) also tonight when i was back at my house i called her again...i hope nothing serious has happened.
It was a rainy day.. so it was a good day to drive a long way...and when i met Gaby it was like we were old friends.. she have a nice life, overthere in Germany.
It brought back some feelings, when i drove in Germany....And it made me think:
Could i have done something better... did i forget to do something...what are my misstakes? i'm still not out of it.. don't have all the answers yet...
What is it that all the good guys run away from me?
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Well tomorrow duty calls again...work work work....early out of bed.
