my special boy
Sweet child of mine,
for your mother you're always so fine,
You always bring me flowers when i'm down,
Or you make some beautiful draw'n,
we can laugh so much together,
or cry...it doesn't matter,
we feel this special mother and son love,
it's as pure as a white dove,
a lot of people see the beauty inside of you...
but others....they are ugly to you
One day i hope this will all be over,
these ugly kids, they are the ones who are really pover.
Mama
Sweety Pie
You came into my life,
after a lot of stress.
I didn't realize it, but yes...
I was surprised by your spontanity and openness.
Suddenly it was clear to me,
when i heard your voice...
i was drawed to you,
there was simply no choice.
So we had to make a date,
perhaps you had some daubts,
but i guess it was just fate...
for me it felt like, we could not make any faults.
Then when we met,
everything was just perfect, from begin till the end.
When we walked outside, or when we were in bed.
All of the time we spend together was just perfect, as if it was meant.
Oh sweety pie, at that time....
i didn't have a clue.
I still thought you could be all mine,
i didn't know where all of this was leading to.
Then suddenly when i had to get back home,
my head was aching,
i didn't understand where that was coming from,
because i felt in love and was on cloud nine flying.....
Then, after uncertain feelings, at one night,
you answered me, to what i was afraid to ask you for quiet some time.
That question kept me busy for a a while, dear i ask it? I might...
Do you want a child of your own....not mine...
And of course you was honest, like you are always,
you answered to me:
Yes! very enthousiastic and in 4 languages.
But since that day, i feel the blues, you see...
Everything, suddenly falled apart!
All the reasons of my happiness
Suddenly caused the pain in my heart,
the sudden appearence of sadness.
Then it was if you felt my grief, and understood what was going on.
You promised me to remain my friend.
And now after some time,
I know what you meant.
Sometimes, when i was in France,
i had to go through some difficult tings,
Sometimes i lost it, and it felt if i had no other chance...
but you helped me and it was if you gave me wings.
You are always there for me,
but i had no eye for the things the're going on in you,
You're always patient with me,
but i was inpatient with you.
Steffen... i have to learn,
yet so much, mon ami.
More than friendship is what you earn,
what we share is so precious to me.
I see everything now, more clear,
first i was so sad,
when it felt, that you'd disappear,
I didn't understand the special and rare thing we had.
Now i understand you better and better,
you opened up to me and opened your heart,
after i wrote you a letter,
you explained me what makes your life hard.
Oh darling, it is more clear to me now,
and i want to give you all the time that you need,
because you have to find out...somehow,
what it is, in your life, that you think you need.
I know it is difficult, also to me...my baby...
but i need to be more comprehensive...show you more,
try to see things more from your side,
Still, i can always fantasize...but also realize...more.
We are both in some sort of learning process,
perhaps we live long enough... and know after some time
there is a chance...maybe oneday we say: Yes!!!
.... Du bist mein....
I want to be easy to you,
don't put you under any pressure,
to give you all the space and time,
i want you to relax, now and in the future.
I think it's because of you that i have more inner peace,
We will see what the future will bring,
for you, for me, for us...
Time will tell everything.
S.P.
My feelings are tearing me apart,
Because you are in my heart.
They are playing with my head...
Oh, when i think of us...
How good we are for each other,
Than, sometimes... I can be very sad.
Oh honey, we know each other,
Better and better...
Sometimes things are so difficult,
But it can be so easy...
What you want in life, is sometimes different
Than the reality....
What is in the future for us,
Who know's?
I feel there is love...
It show's.
That can be the greatest gift, there is,
Ya, i know what I miss...
When we are apart,
Cause you're always in my heart.
S.H.
