Daily reflections~~melancholic, don't read
I have so much to think about and also to laugh......
First thing is: what made me laugh.....
An anonymous person in VC:
Mr. or Mrs. A. Dumbass......
It is no veiled conceit, i wasn't brought up in high society.....
And what me made think about was a lot.... this year was a very bad year for me, and also a very good year after all..... i lost so much and win so much
I cryed so much..... and laughed so much
I find so many things so easy..... and other things so very hard
Sometimes it's simple to decide......sometimes i can't make a decision
that sounds like the libra...
hahaha
But it's not only to laugh, or to cry.... doesn't is that simple all the time
At this point in my life i really have no clue what to do anymore
What good is algebra for now ??? Now i'm standing for the decicion
What good are my diploms for now??? When i don't know what to do
Well i am very melancholic tonight, so i hope tomorrow.... things will be more clear for me, they always are next morning... than i mostly, suddenly see the light!
So tomorrow: come quickly!!!!
Dear friend
With your awesome smile,
i wish to believe that you're smiling to me, when you're taking this photo shot.
Oh...will i ever see you again? That's the big question running around in my mind, always.
Tonight i am resetting my computer and you keep me compagny, i'm looking to you my friend, in the hours that i am busy with installing all things back on my computer again.
This photo, i printed on paper, and it's my most precious piece of paper i have right now.
Because the photo i had on my harddrive is gone now. I lost it with formatting my harddisk.
My only hope is Trudy, my friend that i send your photo to, to show you to her. I've send her an sms asking if she still have you and send you back to me.
I hope that she didn't delete it yet.
reflections
When i think of all the things that are important in my life, there are my children. My children and again my children. There are other important things in life. Such as love, but that is an impossible something, i guess.
So i have to continue with doing what i can very good, keep up my head and go forward.
I am ready with school now, so i will be working next week starting. Looking forward to it? Yes and no. There is an ugly world outside. I am thinking that i can do it, but my teachers are having another idea, i really get that feeling from them. They say it today, that when you are not right for the job, you must aknowlegde it and take answers from it, so they mean, when you are on the street, and feel that this is not right, you must say to yourself that you leave the job.
Now that's nicely told, of course but they won't understand that i needed the job just because.....
Well, monday i'll start and we will see how it goes, from there.
I am really looking forward to it...
Daily news
This week was very moving to a lot of people in my class. We had conflict-handling-assessment lessons. These lessons where again very confronting.
We had to digg in our lives again. See when you had a conflict and how did you react then. These things made a lot of memories come back.
Some people are always going away for conflicts.
Normally i don't do that but this year i learned a few times that people do that a lot.
I am happy that there are girlfriends in life, without them i didn't survive, i guess.
Last night my youngest son was being ill at night so i was busy all night with him in and out bed, he was fetch up all the time, i was so happy that my oldest sun had only to go to school for 3 hours today, so when i went to school, he didn't have to be alone such a long time.
I phoned him everytime when i had a break. But in the afternoon fatigue was coming and i had to stay awake with strong coffee. Maybe it was because of that, i don't know, but my teacher said we could go home 15.00 , i was so happy.
So i went home and saw my son is better, he will go to school again on monday. Now i know that he did great, but these things made me always very worrie. My kids are coping very much with the new situation.
One week more we have to go at school, than october 17th i will start with work. Next week we will train some more with social proficiency training, and communications role play with Type C (agressive) behaviour. We are going to meet that very much on the streets, so we're have to be ready for that.
We had an invitation for a partyevening coming november 9th.
That's a nice thing to look forward to.
This week i had seen a friend that i didn't see for a while, it made me feel very good to see him again. I felt so much for him, still do, but i had to let go of him i thought, so i did. Now he is coming back and i don't know what to think of that, he is very nice, and i am very scared to say or do something wrong, than maybe loose him again. Now i'm not so silly to think that there will be more than friendship, but i really won't like to loose my friend again. Maybe some advise?
Elevation ~/~U2 (from: All that you can't leave behind)
Elevation
High, higher than the sun
You shoot me from a gun
I need you to elevate me here,
At the corner of your lips
As the orbit of your hips
Eclipse, you elevate my soul
I've lost all self-control
Been living like a mole
Now going down,
excavation
I and I in the sky
You make me feel like I can fly
So high,
elevation
A star lit up like a cigar
Strung out like a guitar
Maybe you could educate my mind
Explain all these controls
I can't sing but I've got soul
The goal is elevation
A mole, living in a hole
Digging up my soul
Going down, excavation
I and I in the sky
You make me feel like I can fly
So high,
elevation
Love, lift me out of these blues
Won't you tell me something true
I believe in you
A mole, living in a hole
Digging up my soul
Going down, excavation
I and I in the sky
You make me feel like I can fly
So high,,elevation
Elevation...
Elevation...
Elevation...
Elevation...
Elevation...
Elevation...
